I'm not sure where to start, but, I feel like I need to post something this evening.
Today, my spirit has been in shambles. I woke up in a very foul mood and everything that was brought to my attention, upset me that much more. Finally my wife said to me "honey, you need to find your happy place!". Of course I tried to fuss with her, but she looked at me, turned her chair around and pretty much ignored me. I knew that I really did need to find my happy place, so, I reached out and touched God's hand, after all, it was just a short reach away.
God spoke to my spirit and said "son, let go and lean on me".
Well, I had a choice, but, was I going to be dis-obedient or obey the words that He spoke to me? Huh, I might be stubborn, but let me tell you, I have had enough hard knocks in life due to being dis-obedient, so, I chose to LET GO AND LET GOD!!
I spent a good part of the day ripping and running, trying to stay busy, but I also spent much of the time talking to my Heavenly Father! Lord what would I do without you? I also stopped in to visit a couple of co-workers, mostly to reassure them that I was going to be fine. We shared in some laughter, it was very good to laugh today, as I really had a sad spirit. See, I am human too, and no matter how much encouragement I give to others, there is a REAL side to me, a side that I deal with daily, but I manage to make it through each day because I choose to let God walk in this journey with me, that we all call life! Also, your words of encouragement and the love that you cover me with, continue to give me that UMPH to press forward, as I know that each of you are rooting for me in my journey to be a HEALTHIER, HAPPIER me!!
I feel like I am rambling on and really not saying much of anything, but, maybe that's why I felt in my spirit that I needed to post something, maybe this is for me, my outlet to releasing and letting GOD!
I will end tonights blog entry with the words to a song that has played in my spirit all day.
Let Go and Let God (Dewayne Woods)
I couldn't seem to fall asleep
There was so much on my mind
Searching for that peace
But the peace I could not find
So then I knealed down to pray
Praying help me please
Then He said you don't have to cry
Cause I'll supply all your needs
As sooon as I stop worrying
Worrying how the story ends
I let go and I let God
Let God have His way
That's when things start happening
I'll stop looking back then
I let go and I'll let God have His way
There is much going on
Sometimes I can't find my way
And often times I struggle
Struggle from day to day
I have to realize that it's not my battle
It's not my battle to fight
I have to know if I to put it in His hands
That everything will be alright
Let go...Let God
My brother let go
And let God
My sister you can't handle it
Let God
Oh let go
And let God
Let go
Let God
I hope that those words minister to your spirit. I pray that each one that reads this blog entry, will find that inner peace as you LET GO AND LET GOD!!
In closing, I would like to take this time to again say THANK YOU to all who have commented, sent emails, phone calls and prayed many prayers. I ask that God bless you abundantly! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE keep them coming!!
Also, I want to ask that each of you add to your prayer list my new sister in Christ, Kristen Cox (Oklahoma City), who has obeyed God and began her journey to beat the BEAST. Kristen will be walking with Jesus, 1000 miles in 365 days. She began her journey 7 days ago, and I want to say CONGRATULATIONS on completing her 7 miles in 7 days, she is on her way to BEATING the monsters that have consumed her! I will be walking with Kristen in spirit as I continue to walk my journey!
Kristen, KEEP ON KEEPING ON!!
A SPECIAL thank you to my very dear friend Robyn, for sharing Kristen's blog with me, and for sharing my blog with Kristen. Robyn, Kristen and I will be a wealth of encouragement for each other!
I can't close tonight without once again telling each of you, and reading it again for myself, that...
"YOU ARE #1 IN YOUR LIFE"
lets all remember to take care of ourselves first, so that we can continue to take care of each other!
NIV Psalms 73:24 - You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.
My BIG day begins in less than 40 hours!! Counting down each second, every minute, hour by hour with EXCITEMENT!
Look for me to post from the other side!
Be EXCITED!
Until next post,
God Speed!
Tony
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4 comments:
Tony,
We are wondering how you are doing and how everything went today. You are very much in our hearts and prayers. Looking forward to an update and to having you back home!
Lots of love,
The Eshlemans and Abuela
You are in my thoughts and prayers...just popped through because you were on my mind. I just went back to work last week, but it was so busy, and my weekend was even busier that I decided to take today off, which was much needed. I am going through a lot right now, but keep my mind stayed on Him....without faith in God, where would we be? I am so glad that you let go, and let God...He never fails us my brother!! I look forward to talking with you soon!
Hey Tony, MAy God get the Glory, I hear your coming along well and that the surgery went well "PRAISE GOD TO WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW" You were on our family prayer Monday morning and we all believe that Nothing is impossible with God. I can't wait to see you I hope I recognize you,: ) you always had a coolness about you anyway, now this is taking it to the TOP!!! Just always remember where you came from and keep that incrediable personality you have and you are human and we do have those days that just don't feel right, but each morning my feet hit the floor I say "THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE AND I WILL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT" Keep that before you always and that HE (GOD) made us and not we ourselves and HE THAT HAS BEGONE A GOOD WORK IN US WILL FINISH IT UNTIL THE DAY OF CHRIST JESUS.
BE BLESSED MY BROTHER
LINDA CARTER
Tone- Just wanted to say hi and tell you how proud I am of you! Keep up the great work- You are #1! You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love you,
Ker
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