Post-op day #10
Yup, that's right, I am currently ready to FLY OVER THE COOCOO'S NEST! I am just about ready to be committed to the padded room!
Okay, it's not that bad, but, I am just about to pull my hair out!! LOL!
I am not used to sitting at home without the choice of stepping out the house to run errands, run the vacuum cleaner, clean the glass tables, wash my clothes, YES, I WASH MY OWN CLOTHES, visit friends or family or just take a nice ride through the city. My, the LITTLE things that we take for granted!!
Yesterday(Wednesday), I got a tad bit brave and decided to drive myself to the store! Huh, that was an adventure!! I made it there fine, feeling very wierd, kinda like I just wasn't with it, my hands and feet weren't quite reacting as fast as my mind! I enjoyed my walk through the store, as well as shopping for a quick easy meal to cook for mom, something HEALTHY!! I guess you could say I was feeling pretty good!! The walk was refreshing, I walked every isle, much easier to walk the flat store than the inclines in my neighborhood. I was exhausted when I checked out. I walked to the truck feeling somewhat out of place. I sat in the truck for a minute or two to get my bearings back in order and ventured back home. The feeling of not quite being with it hightened to a very strange level. I mean, I knew I had better get back home before I hit something or somebody!! WHEW, I made it back in one piece!! But I will say, it was good to get out and enjoy the scenery and fresh air.
You know, my shopping experience was different yesterday, I usually fill up my basket with all the things I would plan to cook during the week or two, this time, I used the little buggy as I needed a little bit of support, and had less than 10 items. Most of those 10 items were things that I would be re-introducing back into my diet for the next month!! WOW, what a change and my bill was only $23.47, sure beats the $100 - $130 bill I usually have!!
I cooked mom a meal last evening, baked chicken breast with a Carribean Citrus seasoning and a drizzle of olive oil, baked sweet potato, salad and a slice of pumpkin pie and a fresh pot of coffee with pumpkin spice creamer!!! MMMMMMM, I LOVE PUMPKIN SPICE coffee creamer! Mom seemed to enjoy her meal and had leftovers for lunch today! By the way, NO, I can't have coffee or creamer, any milk for that matter!!
Ok, so now you want to know what I enjoyed for dinner, right? AHHHH, sliced deli turkey, Boar's Head Honey Maple Glazed, my favorite! Guess what, I cheated myself! My mind must have really been in a weird state! I should have measured out 2-3oz., but I measured out .3oz, yep, 3 tenths of an ounce, but I wasn't hungry afterwards!!
Mom and I headed to bed early as both of us were exhausted. I slept for about 2 1/2 hours and then I was back up for pretty much the remainder of the night and early morning. I enjoyed the sound of the rain and thunder, God was speaking to me during this time, but I have to be honest, I didn't listen very well as I was trying to figure out on my own how to handle some things that I am dealing with! When I wore myself down, He said softly, JUST LET GO!!
I am still strugglng with sleep, not sure if it is because I am exhausted or if there is something else going on. In 10 days I have had 2 nights that I actually slept 7-8 hours without waking, the other nights are on average, 2-4 hours. Not sure if my CPAP machine needs to be re-adjusted or what, it's possible, after all, I have lost nearly 90lbs in the last 9 months. HMMMM, saying that makes me think that I should call the sleep doctor and get an appointment! One thing to do tomorrow!!
Being locked up in the house, looking at the same 4 walls in every room is driving me nuts!! I just want to see a new face or a new set of 4 walled rooms, something different, you know what I mean?!?!?! I know, everyone says enjoy it, but it's hard, after all, I'm a pretty active guy, and now that I have lost a teenager in weight, I am beginning to have the energy of that teenager!!
I need to say a quick THANK YOU to Ma, Pops, Becky and Tammy for checking in on me everyday and most days coming by to see me, you guys are AWESOME!!
Mom, THANK YOU!! I don't know what I would have done without you these last two weeks. Greg, thanks for being here everyday, just knowing you are here makes me feel at ease!!
Ok, so, you know, I posted a status on one of my other pages today that I borrowed from someone else......
Yup, that's right, I am currently ready to FLY OVER THE COOCOO'S NEST! I am just about ready to be committed to the padded room!
Okay, it's not that bad, but, I am just about to pull my hair out!! LOL!
I am not used to sitting at home without the choice of stepping out the house to run errands, run the vacuum cleaner, clean the glass tables, wash my clothes, YES, I WASH MY OWN CLOTHES, visit friends or family or just take a nice ride through the city. My, the LITTLE things that we take for granted!!
Yesterday(Wednesday), I got a tad bit brave and decided to drive myself to the store! Huh, that was an adventure!! I made it there fine, feeling very wierd, kinda like I just wasn't with it, my hands and feet weren't quite reacting as fast as my mind! I enjoyed my walk through the store, as well as shopping for a quick easy meal to cook for mom, something HEALTHY!! I guess you could say I was feeling pretty good!! The walk was refreshing, I walked every isle, much easier to walk the flat store than the inclines in my neighborhood. I was exhausted when I checked out. I walked to the truck feeling somewhat out of place. I sat in the truck for a minute or two to get my bearings back in order and ventured back home. The feeling of not quite being with it hightened to a very strange level. I mean, I knew I had better get back home before I hit something or somebody!! WHEW, I made it back in one piece!! But I will say, it was good to get out and enjoy the scenery and fresh air.
You know, my shopping experience was different yesterday, I usually fill up my basket with all the things I would plan to cook during the week or two, this time, I used the little buggy as I needed a little bit of support, and had less than 10 items. Most of those 10 items were things that I would be re-introducing back into my diet for the next month!! WOW, what a change and my bill was only $23.47, sure beats the $100 - $130 bill I usually have!!
I cooked mom a meal last evening, baked chicken breast with a Carribean Citrus seasoning and a drizzle of olive oil, baked sweet potato, salad and a slice of pumpkin pie and a fresh pot of coffee with pumpkin spice creamer!!! MMMMMMM, I LOVE PUMPKIN SPICE coffee creamer! Mom seemed to enjoy her meal and had leftovers for lunch today! By the way, NO, I can't have coffee or creamer, any milk for that matter!!
Ok, so now you want to know what I enjoyed for dinner, right? AHHHH, sliced deli turkey, Boar's Head Honey Maple Glazed, my favorite! Guess what, I cheated myself! My mind must have really been in a weird state! I should have measured out 2-3oz., but I measured out .3oz, yep, 3 tenths of an ounce, but I wasn't hungry afterwards!!
Mom and I headed to bed early as both of us were exhausted. I slept for about 2 1/2 hours and then I was back up for pretty much the remainder of the night and early morning. I enjoyed the sound of the rain and thunder, God was speaking to me during this time, but I have to be honest, I didn't listen very well as I was trying to figure out on my own how to handle some things that I am dealing with! When I wore myself down, He said softly, JUST LET GO!!
I am still strugglng with sleep, not sure if it is because I am exhausted or if there is something else going on. In 10 days I have had 2 nights that I actually slept 7-8 hours without waking, the other nights are on average, 2-4 hours. Not sure if my CPAP machine needs to be re-adjusted or what, it's possible, after all, I have lost nearly 90lbs in the last 9 months. HMMMM, saying that makes me think that I should call the sleep doctor and get an appointment! One thing to do tomorrow!!
Being locked up in the house, looking at the same 4 walls in every room is driving me nuts!! I just want to see a new face or a new set of 4 walled rooms, something different, you know what I mean?!?!?! I know, everyone says enjoy it, but it's hard, after all, I'm a pretty active guy, and now that I have lost a teenager in weight, I am beginning to have the energy of that teenager!!
I need to say a quick THANK YOU to Ma, Pops, Becky and Tammy for checking in on me everyday and most days coming by to see me, you guys are AWESOME!!
Mom, THANK YOU!! I don't know what I would have done without you these last two weeks. Greg, thanks for being here everyday, just knowing you are here makes me feel at ease!!
Ok, so, you know, I posted a status on one of my other pages today that I borrowed from someone else......
"Be the friend that you want to have"!
I try so hard to be a loving, caring, giving friend, you know, that unforgettable friend! I try so very hard to be that friend that no matter what is going on in my life, no matter how busy I am, no matter how stressful my situation is, I try to take time daily to check on those that I know need to be checked on! I guess that's why I am labeled a CAREGIVER, but I wouldn't have it any other way, because I LOVE loving those that are a part of my life! Besides, I want to be the friend that I want to have!!
Now listen, I'm not trying to put a guilt trip on anybody, actually, I am taking this as a learning experience for myself. One, there will never be another me, and there is nobody that can LOVE, CARE for or GIVE like Tony Hatmaker!! See, I have a special God given talent for loving, caring and giving unto others, no, not giving in a monetary sense(and sometimes I have to be obedient to God and give monetarily as well, after all, I don't want to miss out on my blessing), but giving what God has given me to give, my love and caring nature! So much so, that I forget to LOVE, CARE for and GIVE back to myself! It is something that is a work in progress and I will tell you that it is not easy making a change that has been my life for 43 years...BUT GOD!! Also, I feel that this is time that God wants me to focus on Him. He has so many wonderful things in store for me, after all, this is a journey, a journey that He has taken every step, one step at a time with me!!
Now listen, I'm not trying to put a guilt trip on anybody, actually, I am taking this as a learning experience for myself. One, there will never be another me, and there is nobody that can LOVE, CARE for or GIVE like Tony Hatmaker!! See, I have a special God given talent for loving, caring and giving unto others, no, not giving in a monetary sense(and sometimes I have to be obedient to God and give monetarily as well, after all, I don't want to miss out on my blessing), but giving what God has given me to give, my love and caring nature! So much so, that I forget to LOVE, CARE for and GIVE back to myself! It is something that is a work in progress and I will tell you that it is not easy making a change that has been my life for 43 years...BUT GOD!! Also, I feel that this is time that God wants me to focus on Him. He has so many wonderful things in store for me, after all, this is a journey, a journey that He has taken every step, one step at a time with me!!
I have said before that I too am human, I do have feelings and emotions, and sometimes I would like to be treated like the friend that I am, but I am learning to expect the unexpected and not the expected!
I hope that I didn't offend anyone tonight, that wasn't my intent! I pray that each of you continue to walk this journey with me and my Heavenly Father! But if you choose not to, it's okay, I will continue to LOVE you anyway!!
Today, I had alot of quiet time, after all it rained all day long, but I'm not complaining, it was peaceful and very relaxing. My mother-in-law came over and spent some time with me today, we sat and laughed while I spent time trying to figure out how to add a playlist to my blog... by the way, I hope you enjoy the music while you are reading!! My friend Robyn was coming over to visit with me, but her daughter has a cough, so I thought it was a better idea to reschedule for another day, after all, the last thing I need right now is to be sick with the flu or a cold!! I was so looking forward to their visit, but I would rather be safe than sorry. We will see what tomorrow brings!
In closing I would like to again say THANK YOU to those that have come by, called, brought food for mom. Your prayers, those are most important!! The encouraging words, PLEASE, don't stop now, my comment pages have dwendled to nearly nothing and your encouraging comments keep me going everyday! YES, I check everyday, sometimes several times a day! So PLEASE, take just a second to leave your comments, they mean the world to me!!
I hope that I didn't offend anyone tonight, that wasn't my intent! I pray that each of you continue to walk this journey with me and my Heavenly Father! But if you choose not to, it's okay, I will continue to LOVE you anyway!!
Today, I had alot of quiet time, after all it rained all day long, but I'm not complaining, it was peaceful and very relaxing. My mother-in-law came over and spent some time with me today, we sat and laughed while I spent time trying to figure out how to add a playlist to my blog... by the way, I hope you enjoy the music while you are reading!! My friend Robyn was coming over to visit with me, but her daughter has a cough, so I thought it was a better idea to reschedule for another day, after all, the last thing I need right now is to be sick with the flu or a cold!! I was so looking forward to their visit, but I would rather be safe than sorry. We will see what tomorrow brings!
In closing I would like to again say THANK YOU to those that have come by, called, brought food for mom. Your prayers, those are most important!! The encouraging words, PLEASE, don't stop now, my comment pages have dwendled to nearly nothing and your encouraging comments keep me going everyday! YES, I check everyday, sometimes several times a day! So PLEASE, take just a second to leave your comments, they mean the world to me!!
A very special THANK YOU to Josh and my little muffin Kailee. The two of you have yet to miss one day calling to see how I am feeling! Big HUGS to both of you and I LOVE YOU!
Tonight, I ask that you all pray for my very special cousin Jill. I won't go into detail as to her situation, but I will tell you that we are asking for God to intervene and heal her body completely! Tonight, she is really heavy on my heart and mind! Jill has been my rock during this process, although her days may seem weary, she always calls to check on me and encourage me!! Jill, I LOVE YOU cousin!!!
Also, PLEASE pray for Vern, as you know she had to leave last Thursday morning to travel on business to complete a major project. Vern is in Louisianna with Pneumonia, Flu and an ear infection! PLEASE pray for her speedy recovery so she can travel back home! Max and I miss her!
Continue to pray for mom's strength as she continues to travel back and forth to Cameron everyday! She has a very draining job as she cares for Hospice patients all day and the drive doesn't help matters!
Oh, I almost forgot, PLEASE continue to pray for my strength and healing!
"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone"
Remember...
YOU ARE #1 IN YOUR LIFE
Until the next post...
GOD SPEED
Tony
Tonight, I ask that you all pray for my very special cousin Jill. I won't go into detail as to her situation, but I will tell you that we are asking for God to intervene and heal her body completely! Tonight, she is really heavy on my heart and mind! Jill has been my rock during this process, although her days may seem weary, she always calls to check on me and encourage me!! Jill, I LOVE YOU cousin!!!
Also, PLEASE pray for Vern, as you know she had to leave last Thursday morning to travel on business to complete a major project. Vern is in Louisianna with Pneumonia, Flu and an ear infection! PLEASE pray for her speedy recovery so she can travel back home! Max and I miss her!
Continue to pray for mom's strength as she continues to travel back and forth to Cameron everyday! She has a very draining job as she cares for Hospice patients all day and the drive doesn't help matters!
Oh, I almost forgot, PLEASE continue to pray for my strength and healing!
"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone"
Remember...
YOU ARE #1 IN YOUR LIFE
Until the next post...
GOD SPEED
Tony
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